The Significant Other

Why do they call them the significant other? I guess its because that person completes you...makes you whole.....And your life feels empty without them.


After writing the previous post I guess I owe this writeup also....So here goes:

What do I see in her. I dont know. If you ask me if I love her, the answer is yes but it sounds so corny when you say it out aloud. I guess that this might be a possible common thing with guys but I dont know. I am not sure...But I think in one Raymond episode, Raymond voices my exact feelings on saying 'I love you' aloud. I mean I think thats not really meaningful. Love should be shown through actions and not words.


Anyway, coming back to her. I met her when I joined my first job after college. At the time I was in a rather messy relationship which was at the verge of collapsing if at all you can call it a relationship. I dont know - what do you call a couple of calls and a couple of days of actually 'seeing' and then endless e-mails? Well at the time I guess it was a big thing and I referred to it as a relationship....But sadly the other side of it wasnt obliging! :)


Well....that did not last long...and the days at my new job helped to wipe out the 'painful' past...and the great friends I made over there helped immensely. Of all of them, I got closest with a certain girl..which is really a big thing for me...I mean the longest average conversation I have had with a girl before that would have a few syllables at most!!....I wonder what she saw in me :D


What brought us closer? I had a bike...the fact that we went a few places together helped I guess...but the road towards becoming soulmates was very bumpy alright!! The fact that we were of the same church denomination also helped as we used to go together to church regularly...I guess it really did not take long for the friendship to blossom into something more long term...well it didnt go so smoothly..we had lots of problems...believe me lots and lots of them...but still its all worked out well till now..even over this distance ;)


It was difficult at the beginning...wondering what people would think and what we would do to go forward with the whole thing...what would our homes sayand so on...but in the end we decided 'to hell with all that' and decided to go forward!... :)


Whats funny is that at first there was nothing...it was just a friendship..and that was very new for me...and it did help me to get over the previous one


When we first started going out, it was just coz we enjoyed being with each other...I think all long term relations should begin with a friendship and thenfor a long time this will be in 'no mans land' of being in between friendship and something more....I suppose that this is what makes the whole thing so bittersweet...


Anyways, we covered the whole of the city on my bike...restaurants, theatres, parks, beaches, amusement places and so on...I guess I reallydont know when it all began...but I think it was mutual...and the question came up sometime..resulted in a lot of fights between us...I guess it was the whole part of coming into terms with the new status of the relationship...well...when you enjoy the company of a person from the opposite sex and are withthem for most of the time, what are the odds of something like this not happening?! ;)


Well from there, it has blossomed and now I guess she is so much part of my life that I cant even think about life without this friend and soulmate. A great friend who understands me and has been more than a friend...amazingly fun to be with and whose mood is almost infectious at times...a great person and my significant other.


To My Significant Other : You complete me!

Embarassing moments

One fine day in December of 2003, I get to office and boot up my system and open up mail and start going through them....There is one fromKK...not thinking much about it, I open it up...The Subject is 'Sand defeated-- has to be satisfied with Silver!!'

I have absolutely no idea what this means at the time...So I start reading the mail(editted to include here)....

Chennai 22/12/2003:
In a very interesting development, Master Craftsman and the favorite to win the title, Sand was defeated comprehensively in the "Romeo of the year " contest by Upcoming Terror, Lee , Reuters reported here on Sunday.

It all happened when chief judge of the contest Mr. B Sho was on his way to buy some groceries. He saw lee, the winner and a girl on the road and mistook them for a married couple. Put in his on words, the incident is as follows.

Yesterday at noon 12:30 pm I and S went to food world for some purchase.. while we were coming back, two young enthusiastic couples r going in front of us.. The guy who put his hand over the lady's shoulders in main street without knowing what others will think of their activities.. anyway as usual i was eagerly watching what is going to happen.. i walked at a fast pace, to come to them, closer...

NO... i cannt believe my eyes.. Itz our .... . I called him.. He turned back and looked with an .... feeling.(I dont know what he might have think about me at that time)..

No one else it was our lee.. I was laughing.. any way i tried to control my laugh and asked him who is the lady.. she without knowing anything walked away..

He discussed the matter with Rat and KK, the other two judges and it was unanimously decided that, a performance that made an impression of "a couple WALKING AWAY " in the mind of the chief judge really deserved the title. The official crowning ceremony(and the burial of the judges) is expected to take place whenever the judges meet the winner next.

The chief contender for the title Sand seemed really upset with what has happened. When asked to comment on the incident, he told "I had foreseen it all, but what went wrong for me was the semester exams in PESIT". Anyway he has not lost hope and told our special correspondent that "He'll be back".




Funny!...I had to get through half of the post for it to dawn upon me that they were in fact talking about me :-S

Well...At that point I did not care anymore coz almost half of the group already knew about me and my significant other half! :D

So it was real funny...Anyways coming back to that particular incident..boy at the time was that one of the most embarassing incidents of my life..whew!

Footnote: Its only in India that an incident like this would create such a big issue...come here and you will be surprised at what all you see if you go down to the mall!!

Boredom

Another Saturday another boring day...what is it that makes us go through mood swings??

I used to think that only women suffered from this syndrome butnot any more...Its definitely a thing common to both sexes..Why - I donno...Today after getting up at around 9 (I couldnt sleep more than that after sleeoing more than 16 hrs the previous day :D )...what do I do..so damn boring that its actually depressing..what I have found out is that this place has got the quality of doing that to you...I havent been able to figure out why yet..So I put in some Jon Bon Jovi - 'Have a Nice Day' in an attempt to spice up things...helps a bit but not much...Ok Damn!...I take out the phone and call my significant other half...maybe that will make me feel better...after some sweet words and sympathy thats over..after all the meter is ticking in dollars on these long distance calls :P...But I am little better right now...

Then a gtalk message from dipu - 'dai'. I say 'Yes' and in the ensuing conversation inform him of the unbearable boredom...And he asks me why dont I blog..And I think oh theres an idea...and this blog is the miserable result of that conversation...I know it sucks!! :P

So lemme start on another one! ;)

The Stanley Jones Motley Crew - Part 1

With this latest series, I will be going back around 10 years into the past!...Wow..time sure does fly! :-O

I am gonna go through all the characters that were part of my life at school - at least those that were there till the end of the 2 years in St Thomas - and try to describe them the best I can and in addition try to outline those 2 amazing years of my life - The St Thomas Stanley Jones House. Let me start out with the guy who probably influenced me the most during my stay at the hostel and who went on to become my best friend and who is one of the few whom I maintain real close contacts with even now.

Anish
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For those who dont remember this name...try this : 'vappi' :D....
Ok now that should've rung a bell :) Now this guy is a doctor - Dr Sam the mad doctor :))

Anyways, going back all those years, when I first joined St Thomas, I remember being so homesick. See earlier blogs to read more on this. When we got through all of the admin stuff to get into the school and hostel, it was rather late. Parents dropped sis off at the girls hostel and came over to drop me at the boys hostel - Stanley Jones House. At first glance, this is a run down kinda place...nothing much to be excited about....but boy did my opinion and mindset about the place change over time....it really came to be a home away from home ;)

Anyway, since most of the 'real' 2 dorms were filled, I along with a few others were relegated to a 'third dorm' which was nothing but a hall with some beds and shelves put together...a real run down place...if my mood was depressed and homesick, this place only made it worse!
I set up all of my stuff on one side, set up my bed and everything and well just waited....there were a few other folks there that also got along with me in the third dorm. And there was this guy who had set up his place right in front of mine...I guess a pretty smart looking guy...well who was acting a bit too smart :)).....He came over and introduced himself - 'hi-am-aansssaamuel from dubaaai!' - I didnt get anything at first - so just kept nodding my head and ofcourse introduced myself also....well after he introduced himself to a few others, I got the idea. Anish Samuel from Dubai!.. ha ha!! :D

Anish at his early stages was a guy who I guess tried very very hard to impress and gain acceptance from everyone else. Well he has changed a lot from those days even though there are still sparks of that old guy coming up in him once in a while :) But right now this guy is very level headed - at least much much better than old times ;)

Well coming back to the good ol days, the third dorm was a great place....no seniors...no problems...we had our own rules...the wardens were not there all the time...and boy did we make a lot of use of it....tell stories...read books..play games..have food parties...etc... One thing about the hostel - it was a very strict place...we had to keep to strict timings....a bell would ring signaling the end of a particular 'time' and the start of something else. Study time had a bell. Waking time had a bell. Sleeping time had a bell. Play time had a bell....and so on... :) Third dorm was a great escape from all of this...we did get in a lot of trouble with the seniors and wardens a lot of the time...but still life in the third dorm was worth it...!

Anyway, coming back to Anish...this guy was in many ways what I would have liked to be but probably never could and I guess that is what started out this great friendship....And both of us had high aspirations which helped us bond more with each other.... Anish had this way of doing a lot of stupid things...he would blurt out stupid stuff...do dumb things etc...it was so hilarious...but during those 2 years over there, I could see a clear change in his character....he become much more 'stable'...stopped doing all those dumb things....all the stupid escapades with girls... :)....Of which I had my share also...which we used to discuss a lot about....it was lots of fun.. :) Even in class, we all used to sit together on one bench and we were a class of our own....it was great...

Anish helped me get over all of my homesickness and we became great friends in a very short time...

This guy's handwriting was another funny thing about him - no one could decode it unless that person had prior experience with it - I guess this was kind of like a pre-requisite to a career as a doctor! ;)

Anish had a way with the ladies...at least with some of them... :)) ..I have no idea what they saw in him.....but anyway it was hilarious watching him in action...trying so hard to impress them... :)
This guy also takes his friendship very seriously. He will defend you if the need arises and I have several instances in mind when that has happened though I dont remember the exact details....10 years is a long time.....but I remember one time when I defended him with a senior of his who was a batchmate of mine in Bethany - Philip Thekkanal - a bit of a crazy guy - Do you remember that Anish? :)) That was fun... I just told the crazy guy to quit insulting my guest and get out of my room...!

We have had a lot of close calls riding the bike together....the first time I think was when we trying to overtake some scooty guy who would just not give up and we nearly ended up being part of the landscape! :) That was my first close call with high speed biking....The beginning of many more like that...!

I donno - I guess I can just go on and on when talking about Anish....we have shared that much in common....what can I say...this guys is a great guy...my best friend...probably the one guy who has influenced me a lot and in effect plays an important part in who I am right now.....I hope he can say the same about me....we have thought each other a lot of things....learnt through each others experiences....and well....whenever we didnt like something the other guy was doing....we'd just come out and said it...no second thoughts...

Simply put...Anish has helped me mold myself into the person I am right now and hopefully has helped me become a better person! :)

Bethanians Galore - Part 3

The latest episode in this series...

Jesin
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This time its about a bethanian/cetian whom I met a little later in the bethany life.

Jesin joined Bethany late - I think it was in the 2nd year. He along with a couple of other crazy fellows were kicked out of YMCA. There are more stories about the exact details but I dont really remember them...I think it had something to do with Jesin abusing the warden! :D

Anyways, coming back to Jesin, this guy doesnt look like much at first glance...You dont think much about him....Anyways thats what I thought at first...The fact that first impressions do not mean anything can be proved through Jesin. This guy does not really strike you at first but I have to say that Jesin is one of the most sincere and good friends I have had...He was also my neighbour for the latter period of my life at Bethany.It doesnt end there...me and Jesin have had a lot of experiences together...the GRE studies...the Delhi trip..boy was that hell of a trip...but thats a story for a later blog ;-)

I remember the first time I really got to know Jesin. He had a movie on his system - Shrek - I wasnt really all that much for animations and I was thinking that there is no way that I am gonna enjoy this movie....I guess my thoughts on this also had a lot to do with the first impression factor I talked about earlier...Well anyways I watched the movie and I loved it...It was amazing...Then I realized that our tastes were very similar... :) ....from there started a really great friendship

I remember there was a time when Jesin used to have pics of supermodel Laetitia Casta on his system...password protected in hidden folders :))Well Jesin has changed a lot from that time... :)

People rarely call Jesin by name...
he is known by a lot of other names...thadiyan...gelusil..etc...Me myself used to call him Danny De Vito coz he used to remind be of the actor :D And boy did Jesin get mad when we used to call him by these names....in fact there used to be plans in the hostel all the time which involved ambushing Jesin which often ended up in the ambusher getting hurt...sometimes badly!! ;))

Jesin used to call himself by the name maestro...Unfortunately no one else did :D
Another sure fire way to get Jesin mad was to open his system DVD drive...this was often part of the ambush plans..ofcourse whoever unfortunate enough to get caught doing this was history! :)

Jesin was and is a great and sincere friend...its been some time since I have spoken to him...but he sure is an amazing guy...a rare kinda person that you stumble across once in a while during the journey that is life.

Working Blues

Face it..At one time or the other during your working life, you've been pissed off like hell at that insufferable working colleage. And you wonder if this is just common to you?
The backstabbers, the freeloaders, the 'always right's' and the list goes on...Its unbelievable.

When you get out from the college environmentto the working one, the whole thing changes. You need to watch your back and this becomes worse are you go up the corporate ladder. Why? Coz most of the people up there would have been through all of that shit and would have even done some back stabbing themselves to get up there. How do you deal with it? I donno.

I have had my share of bad days. Some people just look for some else to blame it on when it comes to their mistakes and it often gets pinned on the unsuspecting 'green' guy. Thats life. Survival of the fittest. You need to learn the tricks of the trade to make it somewhere in the corporate world. Just being 'good' will not take you anywhere. You gotta work smart also. I know of folks who are working at the same level as they were 3 years ago. Being the nice guy will not work all the time.

Working hard gets you nowhere. Gotta work smart too. Else get prepared to be the 'fall guy'

Bethanians Galore - Part 2

As promised, I continue this thread on the fun guys whose paths have crossed with mine during the life at Bethany Students Center .....

Shobin
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When I joined in Bethany during my first year, I had to do so a little late coz I got into another college at first and then got transferred to theTrivandrum college. Anyway, at the time, it was very difficult to get into Bethany because there wasn't any place in any of the rooms and there was a long waiting list also to get into this place. It was unbelievable! After a wait of - I think it was a couple of months, I finally got into Bethany. When I saw my room, my mouth fell open. I mean, how could they fit in one more person into here! I remember knocking on the door and it opening and there was Sho...A little kid!! - how can this guy be in college?!! - Well this thought of mine changed after meeting Alex. Sho looked good enough for college :D....

Anyways, coming back to Shobin, I remember he was not that happy to accomodate me also in the room. I guess his current roomie wasnt helping either - Guess who? Dennis!! :D...He must have thought coz I was friends with Dennis...mmmmmm...well you can imagine... :)

Anyways, at the time Shobin was what you would call a pakka 'mama's boy'. I remember telling him that within 6 months he will change and will be doing whatever we all were doing and he scoffed at me...Sure enough, after a few months guess who was in front of the computer watching.......

One of the beginning episodes with Shobin was the ragging one. Man was this a big event. All the seniors had big plans for Sho. Somehow he had pissed off these guys and they were all of the unanimous opinion that he was to be treated a little bit. So one night, they all come in...Arun Geo also included(how he got classified into a senior I dont know!) and then ensued an extended session of 'ragging'. To tell the truth it was not so bad and was actually very funny. These guys kept me in there reminding me that I should not report this as ragging ;) Anyway Sho kept up with things for a very long time. But toward the end he broke up (Sho - remember what it was that broke you?? :)) ) and there it all ended. I guess the seniors did not expect that. Sho came a long long way from there. He changed a lot. Became quite a cool guy.

Sho is a very funny guy. Known for his sayings like 'idli' and 'halwa' and many other famous dialogues :) And he is also a good friend. There are so many stories to tell about this guy but I dont want to embarrass him all at once....So Sho, keep watching this space...I got lots of stuff of you to put in here.... ;)

Bull, Bear or just a plain ol Pig? - Part 1

Yep!...I'm talking about the stock market.

In the market a bull represents an individual who buys and is very optimistic about the prices rising.A bear is someone who's line of thought is the exact opposite. He thinks that prices are going down and sells. Now while both these camps of people have very different viewpoints about the market, they have a thing in common and that is that they make money.

I am sure we all have heard of bulls and bears. Coming to third class, the pig, this is the fool who does exactly the wrong thing in the market and ends up getting slaughtered. In other words, he buys when the market might be tanking and it keeps on going down while the poor pig is losing money. This reaches a point till when he cant take it anymore. He sell at a huge loss and sits back thinking that he protected himself from a bigger loss. At exactly this point, as if on cue, the market reverses and moves up at a pace thats unbelievable leaving our good ol pig totally flustered and without a clue!

Well, throughout my trading career of the past 3 years, I have been a pig for a major portion of the time. For an outsider, it looks almost too easy to make money in the market. But once you get in and start putting money on the line - boy do things start changing fast. Emotions come into play. Greed,fear...Its a cornucopia of emotions in the market place. It has to be experienced to be believed. The stock market is the quickest wayto get very rich and its also the place to go broke in record time. Some of the most brilliant minds of our era operate in the stock market. Still a brilliant mind is not enough. People intensely successful in other fields have given up after trying out their hand in the markets. Why? - Because it takes more than a brilliant mind to function in the market. You need to control your emotions and have discipline to follow a fixed plan. Else well, its just another pig led to the slaughter!

Bethanians Galore - Part 1

I am starting out a new series over here.

Bethany Hostel life was one of the important parts of my life and during this time I met several characters.Really amazing characters in their own special way. Everyone talented - also in their own special way :P

I will attempt to describe these individuals the best I can - As seen from my eyes.

Dipu
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Let me start out with Dipu. Why? Coz I think Dipu was one of the first bethanian's of my batch I met(Actually its Vimal and Dennis, but more about them later). Shanmugha(our senior) kind of introduced him to me. At first glance Dipu strikes you as a normal kind of guy. Bit short(no offence), hair combed straight back with no attempt to cover the ever expanding bald spot at the time(even then, it was evident :P). No style as such. Shirt out untucked at the time. Speaking in a precise manner. Later on, came to find out he is one of the most hardworking guys I knew at the time. Ofcourse, later on it all went for a toss. It turned out his only aim was to grap a campus placement which at the time, our seniors were getting at a very prolific rate. Anotherthing about Dipu was his sleep. There was no way this guy could stay awake in class right under the teacher's nose :D. He could sleep for hours at a stretch. This was one guy who took his rest very seriously. One thing makes me happy when I look at Dipu. I see myself as a lazy guy but when I see Dipu, I am happy again. This guy will not get out of his bed if it were not to have food or answer nature's call :P . Study was a different thing though.The possibility of NOT getting a job, kept him on his feet alright.

What else about Dipu : A great organiser of things. Not so good at Math involving common sense though :P. A good planner. Stands his ground. A very goodfriend and probably the person I used to talk and debate with a lot in hostel. Philosophy ofcourse :P.
And a 'drinks partner' of mine throughout Bethany.We discovered a lot of brands together. The best of which was Honey Bee and McDowells :P

Dipu? - Been a Long time right???

Rat
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Dipu's roomie.
First time I saw this guy was thru Shanmugha also. On the back of his bike. Ha ha!! Turned out this guy likes to sit on the back of thebike of a lot of guys. I wonder why?? :P Later on it turned out to be me on a permanent basis :( And when this guy gets on a bike, he likes to direct people - in only one direction. Thats left left and again left!....Boy have we badly lost our way a lot of times. Anyway, coming back to the first timeI saw him, I remember thinking - why is this guy staring at me like this? - Cant this f**ker smile or what? I remember being a bit taken aback at his expression - a bit too intimidating. Anyways that turned out to be only an intial kinda thing and once you get to know this guy, he can be a lot of fun to be with. One thing I admire in him is that if he wants to say something, he will just come out and say it no matter who is around. Hes not easily scared by people. A very sincere and responsible fella. Another thing about him is that he loves being insulted. He even does it himself. I wonder how many ppl reading this remember 'NMR'. This actually stands for Noon Mess Register (I think) and we were all pondering one day in first year - one lazy evening - about what that could mean. And Rat came up with 'Naayinte Mon Ratheesh'!!! :DDD (For those who donno malalyalam, that means 'son of a dog,ratheesh'). Thats Rat for you. And he's a very helpful guy also. Has helped me out in a lot of electronics problems(oh the nightmares!!) which I couldn't figure out but somehow was a cinch for this guy and dipu :-S

And last but not least : His full name : Ratheesh P Kunnan. And YES! He laughs at this also :D

The First Time

No I am not talking about sex over here! But about general 'first times'. Everything has a first time. The first job. The first kiss. The first car.(Btw my first car is in the workshop now damaged from a bad radiator leakage but that another story!)

Life is filled with unique experiences. People generally try to stay away from new things. People like to stick to familiar things. It makes them feel more comfortable. Just ask yourself if you can take the risk of giving up your current job type and try out something new. Very few would. Why? Because people like to feel safe and secure. But without taking the step towards that 'first time', you are never gonna realise what you are capable of.

Every person should try as many 'first times' as possible (ofcourse wherever its within reason). After all life is too short to miss out on all thegood things it has to offer. Slogging away in front of a computer is NOT one of them :P

Note : Good Movie to watch : Fight Club.
Disclaimer : Not everyone will understand this movie.
And this is NOT the STUPID Hindi one but the original English version.

Movie Time!!

Where would we be without movies and TV shows. I mean, I am a real movie buff. With the help of bittorrents and Azeureus, I must have covered most of the great movies of our time. I hope the copyright guys dont get a wind of how much I've downloaded. Till date my total download and upload traffic is in the close vicinity of 600 GB. How do you like that!!

Yesterday I watched 'To kill a Mockingbird'. Quite a good movie considering that it came out in 1962. Some of the other greats I have really enjoyed are : Braveheart, The Shawshank Redemption, The Matrix and The Green Mile. Ofcourse the list goes on but let me stop here. Its amazing how a movie touches you. How sometimes it makes you well up inside and sometimes even makes you shed a tear. A storyteller who can bring out such emotions in an individual is the King and Master supreme. What better way to spend an otherwise boring afternoon than a couple of good movies.

Good sitcoms and comedies like Friends and Everybody loves Raymond is my other favourite timepass. The shorter timespan of these makes sure that your attention is captivated throughout the entire 20 mins or so. A movie unless its excellent will fail to do that.

A movie is there for every mood. When you pick a movie to watch, you need to make sure that your present mindset matches with it. Else it kind of dampens the experience.
For example, romance movies are good to watch after a couple of 'pegs' :P
A good comedy can lift up your spirits any day.

Right now, I'm getting into 'Chinatown'. Lemme go for it - Out for a couple of hours!!

The best days of our lives - Part 1

There's a very famous song by Bryan Adams - one of my favourites also - Called Summer of 69. Thats a song that I am sure we all can identify with. Why because - He's talking about the best days of his life. We all have periods like that in our lives where we look back right now and long for them. Thats human nature I guess. We rarely appreciate what we are involved in right now but try to look back and long for those 'golden' days.

I am not saying that those days were not golden. They sure were the best of the best. For me it was 2 years in St Thomas Central School, Trivandrum and 4 years in Bethany Hostel also at Trivandrum during my Engineering degree at the College of Engineering. Those days were cool. Those 2 years at school probably thought me much more than life than I ever have learnt in the rest of my life. Thats how it was. Opening up of a new world. A world away from parents and my bro. I did have my sis along with me who joined over there at the same school - thankfully a different division :P.

Anways - what was so great about st thomas school. I dont know. It was just great. Well not so much the first few weeks. I remember when I was dropped off at the hostel. A spindly 14 year old kid dropped off by his parents at the Stanley Jones Boys Hostel to brave the world on his own. I didnt know it even a few minutes before but then said goodbye and my mom started crying, I could not take it. I cried too. And then ensued a long period of extreme home sickness. Wow thats something that I wouldnt want to wish upon anyone. But sample this : There were kids as old as 5 or 6 years being dropped off my their parents at the junior hostel!Amazing!!...How can kids as young as that bear to be away from their parents and why would parents do that in the first place. Well I suppose that they have their reasons and I dont want to question that.

That was my first days with St Thomas. Boy did I hate that place. Little did I know that these were going to be a few of the happiest years of my life. More details on this place later...!

After school came college. More than college better times were spent at a hostel called Bethany Students Center - A motley crew of teenagers and young adults from various facets of life all joined together to form a very unlikely crowd of hostel mates. Why did I decide to join this college over the CET mens hostel. Well to tell the truth part was the fear of getting ragged by seniors and the other part was that I did know Bethany well having stayed there for my entrance exams and coaching and all that bullshit. Bethany was another place that probably molded me into what I am right now. Not that I am so proud of what I am right now but it could have been worse :P

All the different characters that I have seen over these 2 years in school and 4 years in college. That alone can fill up the rest of the blogs that I am to author. Keep watching this space. You might also be featured in here soon! :))

A rather quiet sunday and random musings

It sunday. The last day of freedom in this week before the madness begins. Being onsite might be a great fantasy when you are offshore but it aint so much fun when you are here in the line of fire. Things go wrong - and you're screwed. Things go good - well you're just doing your job. I mean c'mon!! A little appreciation wouldnt do any harm and I dont mean in words alone. Money talks! :)

Software is a dog eat dog world. Anyone beg to differ? And I dont see things getting any better. A major consolidation is going to happen in this industry where the big guys are gonna get bigger while the smaller companies get eaten up. Why am I in this industry? I dont know why. I guess the truth is that very few people end up where they want to be in life. My dream when I was a kid at a particular point of time was to be a scientist :D Well when you are a kid, you dream about a lot of stupid things. At a particular point of time, my mom wanted me to be a priest!!...And I was ready to do that to make her happy and at the time I thought it would be a shortcut to heaven. Well I grew up throwing out with that all these ambitions and entered college. Even there I wanted to a real tech engineer. You know - the guy who fixes stuff. Well another stupid dream of a teenager dashed to the ground. GRE and dreams of an MS in the US also dashed to the ground. And now well here I am. Life is changing as we grow up - atleast so it is in mine eyes. What we used to consider as great when we were kids is no longer so. Sometimes I feel it was much easier to be a kid. Well life is a compromise and we gotta live with it. Shit happens but life is still beautiful and I would not have it in any other way!!

I think thats enough bullshit for now! :-P

My First Post

Okay so finally I too get into the blogging business. I wonder why I waited so long. I know that I wanted to but never really got around it. I did inspire several of my friends to start blogging which is crazy when I myself never started. Anyways as they say - better late than never - here I go. And boy do I have a lot to write. Even as I speak the world cup final is going on and it looks like Italy is about to kicks France's ass...Well in my opinion this world cup was one of the worst I have seen in that all the good teams got kicked out early and at least one team in the final did not deserve to be there...Well shit happens...Thats life!

A little about myself. My friends call me Lee and well several other names also which I dont want to get into the details of right now but expect these to come up in later blogs....I am in the US currently and under a lot of pressure from one side to stay here and from the other side to return back to India. Well right now I am here and probably will be for a major part of this year...and life is just going along...Why did I name this blog what I named it? I dont know. I just sat here pondering on what I would name it. Something catchy. Something not too cheesy. I know the current one is close but then this one sticks until I can find something better. And I do think that life is beautiful. Life stinks in a lots of ways but sometimes, you just feel it. Life IS beautiful. Enjoy it to the max!!